Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Our Little Surprise- the Story

I feel as though perhaps this story has now been hyped up and will be much less exciting then you all may be thinking. But it is certainly crazy to us, and it has been a crazy few weeks.

So you already know the punchline to the story: I am indeed with child. I am due May 13th (ish). And it looks like it will be a GIRL. That makes me right around 17+ weeks.

Here is the story:

A little over a month ago I started having terrible headaches... that would turn to migraines. And would last for days. I was living off of Advil just to make the pain bearable, but it would never fully go away. Migraines are not foreign to me, I do get them occationally. But not for a month at a time. It was starting to really wear on me... to the point where I felt a doctors appointment was necessary. In addition to my headaches, anytime I would lay flat on my back I felt a little bump in my belly. It wasn't in the normal low-belly pregnancy spot, it was up high. But my first thought was "This is how my belly felt when I was pregnant!" But I dismissed the thought, really thinking that was NOT an option and it seemed too high to be a pregnancy. Finally with the lump in my belly, and my headaches Shad decided a doctors visit was now needed. I told him that the last time I had persistent headaches like this was when I was pregnant with Owen. So I was going to take a pregnancy test to completely RULE out pregnancy. So I wouldn't go to the doctor just to have them tell me that I was pregnant... because that seemed embarrassing.

During the boys nap time, I took the home pregnancy test two days before Thanksgiving. Those 2 lines showed up almost immediately. WHAT?? How could I possibly be pregnant?! I haven't had a period since before I had Nathan. I am still nursing him. And Shad and I have been cautious in prevented said pregnancy. How...?? So I took another one. Yup, pregnant. After calling Shad at work in tears, bawling my eyes out how I wasn't ready for this, I was not happy about this, that this wasn't really happening... he convinced me to call the doctor. The phone nurses and I had no way to date this pregnancy... I hadn't  any "real" pregnancy symptoms, no time frame of when I "suspected" pregnancy, and no period dates to go by. They had me do blood work the next day only to find out yes, I am knocked up... no we don't know how far along. "Maybe 8-10 weeks based on your hormone levels? But that's a pure guess." They also had me lay down and see if I could feel any bump... I told them yes, and how big and how high it was and they responded with "Well, that sounds like about a 15 week belly!" (Yeah... right)

Next came the ultrasound appointment... the BIGGEST shock of all. We had to wait all Thanksgiving weekend for the ultrasound, because, of course, they were closed. And I was in denial all weekend refusing the acknowledge the fact that I was pregnant, I felt like somehow it wasn't really true until the ultrasound! On the Monday after Thanksgiving we went in for our ultrasound to "date the pregnancy." The ultrasound tech didn't know what to expect, and I'm sure she was expecting the little gummy bear baby (based on her reaction)... but instead she found this:




Shad and I both were speechless, and the ultrasound tech responded with "Well, that's a GOOD sized baby in there! I'd say about 16 weeks!" Again, WHAT!?!?!? There was our little baby moving and squirming around! She measured and looked at our little baby, and asked if we wanted to know gender. I responded with "Well, we might as well rip the whole bandaid at once..." knowing what was coming next: GIRL. I had suspected this since the day I found out I was pregnant. If you know me at all you know that I am TERRIFIED of having girls! I am not sure what this irrational fear has taken over, but for some reason I feel like I wouldn't know what to do with a girl. I've always just pictured us with boys. I've always thought of myself of a mom to BOYS. I've never been the type of mom that has longed for a little girl. Its not that I won't love having a little girl, or that I don't like little girls. I love them! I love shopping for girls, and playing with little girls. And I know that I will absolutely ADORE my little princess. And I'm sure that I will not be able to imagine life without her. It is just the IDEA of having a girl that scares me. I know... it's weird. I am not really sure how to explain it. We have another ultrasound scheduled for December 28th, after the 20 week mark... to DOUBLE check that it's a girl! :)

 Anyway, after the ultrasound, I cried the whole way home. It was a lot to take in.

So let's recap, in 6 days time I found out I was pregnant, not only pregnant but 16 weeks pregnant, and having a girl! How could I have gone 4 months not knowing!?! Not even suspecting. 4 MONTHS!?

There you have it. Surprising. Very surprising news.

Looking back it seems like maybe I should have known. Nothing too obvious, I mean I didn't have morning sickness, extreme fatigue, cramping, or lots of baby movement (like I did with Nathan), I didn't look pregnant at 13/14 weeks like I did with the others. It was just a few tiny things, that really could have been put off as something else that added up to pregnant! Like... it wasn't all that Halloween candy and sweets that made me gain weight. That's why the smell of pickles made me salivate (which I normally HATE). That's why I felt like I had to pee a lot. Just little things. Or maybe I was in denial!

It is certainly going to take me some time to get super excited about this. And I know that I will get there. But I wanted to announce it, because I do feel like over the last couple weeks since i've found out I LOOK pregnant now. And it feels like I've been hiding a secret, even if I did JUST find out! Plus it just feels better to get it out there. It will help me get excited! Shad is super excited, and its nice to have someone who is so excited about fatherhood and adding to our family. He has always said that he wanted a bigger family, and he wants them close in age. He is very supportive and has helped me gain much needed perspective on the whole issue. How can I be sad about something that really is a sweet blessing. We knew we wanted more kids eventually, so why not now! :) It has certainly been humbling. I know Heavenly Father has a plan for our family, and I know that this little girl was just too anxious to wait to join our family!

So bring on the...Pink?! Maybe purple instead. ;)

17 comments:

Courtney said...

What a CRAZY story! This little girl must be something - she had to make a dramatic entrance! I am oozing with excitement for you! Yay for little girls!

Shauna said...

Wow, that's so CRAZY! I can totally understand not being all that excited about it. That's how I would feel too! But I'm super excited for you that it's a girl! Little girls are just the best!

Cara said...

Holy surprise! I know everyone is telling you that you are going to love having a girl and you totally will because she is your baby, but don't let it make you feel bad if you aren't excited now. You will have your moment when you are excited about it and it doesn't matter how long that takes.

Megan said...

Congratulations!! What a crazy surprise for you! :) You are an amazing mother and such an example to me. I am so happy for you guys!

Camille said...

WOW!!!
Congratulations! You are going to absolutely LOVE having a girl! I'm so excited for you!

Joel & Megan said...

That IS a HUGE Surprise! And DEFINITELY a lot to take in. It reminds me of the "I didn't know I was pregnant" show. ;) At least you were able to find out at 4 months, instead of when you are in Labor :P :P :P Hang in there. Girls are a lot of fun :) I think in general having kids whether planned or not comes with a lot of anxiety, but HEY Here's to TOTALLY skipping one of the worst parts of the pregnancy. I think the first 3 months can be the worst! :P :P We'll be praying for you! Lots of love, The Warrens

Cassie Rowse said...

I know how the freaking out feels. Soren was SOOOO not planned and I was about to start my last year at BYU when we found out. I always pictured you with a girl 3rd. Feel free to freak out as long as you need to.

Rachel said...

Oh my heck, that is crazy! You are living my dream! I so wish I was the person that found that I was already halfway through my pregnancy. I get so so so sick in the first trimester, I am so jealous that you went through the whole first trimester without even knowing you were pregnant! Seriously. You. are. living. my. dream.
I am so excited for you! May is an awesome month to have a baby, by the way. Kaden was born May 12, and I think his birth was my favorite time of the year to have a baby.

Melissa said...

Wow! That is a lot to take in. Congratulations though! And you will love having a little girl and what a lucky one to have two big brothers to take care of her.

Brad and Kjirstin said...

Wow! Congrats! You are going to love a girl I know it. Plus less worry for you, she will have 2 older brothers to look after her when she starts dating. Brad is just planning the gun collection at the moment. I will have to start making you some hair bows!

Ben and Carrie said...

I loved hearing (reading) the story for the second time today. What a BIG week you've had. Hopefully all the surprises are out of the way and on to planning and preparing for this sweet girl (unless they find her twin sister in there at your next appointment... ha ha, just kidding).

Congrats again! Babies are such a blessing.

Lorie Walters said...

That is a crazy story!! I had 3 and the oldest was 3. I wasn't so excited about the pregnancy and it was very BUSY at times, but those 3 have always been so close and they really played well together and had fun growing up together. The 2 more spaced out kids didn't have such good buddies. I just LOVE my daughters (and my sons)! Couldn't do without any of them! Good luck!

SuburbiaMom said...

Sounds like she was meant to come to the family--in whatever crazy way it happened! Congrats!

Tara said...

This really is quite the story, Krista! I'm sure it's a lot to process all at once but I'm so excited for you. I promise that you will love, love, love having a baby girl! Congrats!

Jarom and Heidi Taylor said...

Oh my GOSH!!!! Seriously Holy COW!!! Jarom and I are super excited for you both!!!! :)

Jordy and Paiger said...

Hi! I stumbled across your blog on Marilyn Green's blog. I hope you don't mind I took a peek. I am excited for you! That is a crazy story! I hope you and Shad are doing well. It's been a long time.

Susan Cady Allred said...

May 13th! That's my B-day! Fabulous time for a birthday, by the way.

And don't feel bad about not knowing....I had horrible morning sickness with my girls, and NOTHING with my boys.

Congratulations!!! You, of course, will be a fabulous mother to your little girl!! She's so lucky to have you and Shad and the boys!! :)

The Allreds